Month: June 2014

What’s in a name?

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Years ago, I named my self unloved, worthless and so much more…but then something happened at the end of my freshman year of college. I realized that my joy could only be made complete with the love that Christ offers. I was truly transformed. I could look at the life I lived before that moment I accepted Christ and then at the moment after and realized I was renamed. I was worthy not because I deserved it, but because He offered it freely.

But then years down the road other names came up as I continued on. Going through some pretty tragic storms I could have easily named myself hopeless. Working myself too hard became a very big part of my life. I loved the job I had, lived for it, breathed for it…and then three years later I finally allowed myself to hear what God was saying, what my husband was saying and what my community was saying. God had so much more in store for my life than just being named by my work.  Don’t get me wrong…I really did LOVE my job. But that was the problem. I was more in love with my job than I was with Christ. I was terrified to walk away because for so long I was named by my job.  I was named by my success. I was an achiever. I wanted affirmation from the world more than I thought possible…and then finally eight months ago, God rattled the depths of my heart like I never thought possible. He called me to walk a path I never thought I would. A path that walked me away from the job I had always longed for.

He calls me daughter. He calls to find my name in Him and not in those around me or my circumstances. He calls me to a greater purpose – to glorify Him in all ways. He named me forgiven – no matter how many times my heart wonders. He reminded me that my source of life would never come from anyone around me, not my husband, not my family, not my work and not my community – He is the everlasting source of life. He is the only one that can make my joy complete.

So now, four months into my new job and a completely different lifestyle..God has taught me so much. He’s revealed so much to me over my short time following the She Reads Truth Bible study.  Each day I am genuinely eager to see where He’s leading us, what He’s teaching me and how I can continue to glorify Him and the kingdom.

“Wait, my daughter, until you learn how the matter turns out.” Ruth 3:18

What is your name? Share it here.

The She Reads Truth community is working through the book of Ruth, and I invite you to walk with us at SheReadsTruth.com.

God’s comma

This morning I was reminded how thankful I am for God’s comma.

Sometimes it’s easy to look at our current storm and be bogged down by the circumstances we’re in. If I look back at the past almost four years I’m shocked to see the things that God has thrown my family’s way. I’ve had to say goodbye to a father, a grandfather and so much more. We had the scare of my mom having a serious heart attack six months after my dad died. It was all too much. At times it felt like the world was closing in, but then again – there were so many people praying for us. There were so many people praying when we couldn’t. There was God carrying us when we couldn’t go any further.

I could have let these circumstances overwhelm me and throw me off course, but then I’d be letting satan win. Isn’t that his goal? He wants to take our focus off of The Lord.  My dad passed away four months before my wedding. It was such a delicate time, but thank God that He had a beautiful story for me. Yes, I lost my father who was my hero, my coach, the spiritual leader of our family and my friend, but I was about to gain a husband, a help mate and my anam cara. Our family has become even closer.

I’m not saying that the journey has been easy because I promise you – it hasn’t. I still have some days where I wake up and I forget that my dad’s gone. It’s easier for me to face each reminder of what we’ve been through by having Len, my sisters and mom to walk through the journey together.

I was graciously reminded of advice I received from a friend during a devotional this morning, “don’t put a period where God puts a comma.”  Over the past four years I could have easily looked at the storms my family was going through and allowed it to overtake me, but that isn’t God’s plan. He has a comma to the story. There’s more than just the storm. He has something great planned for each member of my family that’s going through these same storms. Our journeys along the way our different, but He’s carrying each of us through it – if we allow Him to. He’s going to make each of our stories beautiful, because His word says it’s so.

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Over the past four years, Ecclesiastes 3:11 has become one of my life verses. When I’m going through a storm this is what the Holy Spirit speaks over me. He’s going to make it beautiful – whatever it is we’re struggling with. Whatever storm we’re facing, one day it will be beautiful. His Word is absolute truth, so why shouldn’t I believe this. When my heart doesn’t feel this way I speak this verse until my heart changes. Seriously. I promise it works!

So, no matter what storms come my way in the future, my prayer today is that I “don’t put a period where God puts a comma.” There’s more to the story than the storm we’re facing.

My Wide Awake Moment

When we moved almost two year and a half ago we decided within 8 months of moving that we were too far away from our home church. On Sundays We were commuting at least 45 minutes (without traffic on 635). It was tough…not to mention we no longer lived close to those we were supposed to be “living life with.”  It made it hard to have spontaneous plans with our friends because we weren’t just down the street anymore.  Needless to say for this reason alone I was sad that we moved. It’s not that we are THAT far away, but when it takes 45 minutes or more to meet someone it makes it difficult. So, when our foundations group ended we decided to officially make the switch.

We visited just about every church in our town. And every week I was discouraged yet again – why couldn’t we find people in our life stage at these churches? Apparently we’re the only ones in our small town that don’t have kids.  Maybe God’s trying to tell me something! 🙂

Then about 6 months into our church search we found Hope Fellowship in North Frisco. Immediately I loved it. The worship was fantastic. I could feel God the moment we walked into the building. You know what I’m talking about? I felt as if when we walked in the room I was walking right into His embrace. It was incredible. The teaching is fantastic and the people are so nice.

Now over a year later, we’re officially deciding it was time to find community and get connected. A few weeks ago I took the plunge and went to a women’s conference at our new church. The only person I really  know there is my best friend, Erin. SO glad her and her husband are going to the same church as us. It makes it so much easier.

Anyway, back to my original reason for writing this blog. Erin and I attended the annual Women’s Conference at Hope, Wide Awake.  And let me tell you – I had several Wide Awake moments during the course of the weekend.

  1. I really want to be a candy thrower again!
    One of the speakers on the first night talked about being a candy thrower and how she used to be silly, but then she got busy and frowned upon people being silly around her. I totally relate to that. I want to be fun again! I want to be a candy thrower. I want to make memories filled of laughter and bring joy to those around me. Luckily for me with my career change I have a lot more free time that has helped me develop this part of who I was years ago. I’m excited to gradually become a candy thrower and I already have stopped frowning on others who are candy throwers themselves. I now remember how much fun they are having!
  2. Don’t stumble over something behind you.
    Sounds simple, right? Well, for me it isn’t. Maybe it’s just human nature, but I have such a hard time (some days) letting go of things in my past. Sometimes it’s bigger things and sometimes it’s conversations I wish I would have had. If I’m focusing on what’s behind me then how can I run the race He’s set before me? (Hebrews 12:1) My prayer is that I acknowledge when Satan is trying to use my past as a strong hold and remember that Christ cleansed me of my sin even though I didn’t deserve it. His love is that incredible!
  3. We are called to do great & impossible things.
    This one is still stewing in my heart. I’m beginning to realize what I want out of my life may be completely different from what the Lord has in store for me. I’m just praying that He helps direct the desires of my heart to where He wants to lead me. I’m eager to see what He reveals to me in the months to come. I’ll make sure to fill you in when the time comes!

  4. Remember in your marriage – you are a sinner married to a sinner. It’s not going to be perfect.
    This one was really big for me. I always struggle with wanting to be the perfect wife. the perfect homemaker. the perfect organizer. the perfectly joyful person. at. all. times. And you guessed it – this is NOT possible! I’ll never be perfect, but I can rest in the fact that I don’t have to be perfect! It’s so freeing. Of course I still want to strive to fill my home with happiness and joy, but if I mess up it’s not the end of the world.

    For those of you who know me…you know how big this realization is. I’m a perfectionist at heart. And the fact that God is continually reminding me that I don’t have to be perfect because He is makes me laugh. I’m so glad that He’s persistent in reminding me this. He’s only been trying to reveal this daily in my marriage for over three years!

  5. How has God called me to serve?
    This one God has been working on me for several months now. Before in my previous position I didn’t have the time, energy or spiritual stability to serve — I know it’s an awful excuse. But I allowed so much of my life to be consumed by my job that it wouldn’t have benefitted anyone to serve. NOW…three months into the new job I’m SO excited to find a place to serve at our church. God’s really been revealing to me different areas where I could be serving. I really have a heart for high school/college ministry because I feel like that’s when I needed help the most. I needed someone to help lead me down the right path, and I didn’t have that in high school.  I’m continuing to pray asking God to reveal if that’s really where He wants me to serve. I’m so ready to dive in!

Okay, so that was a LOT, but hopefully as I continue to figure out how I’m going to use this blog and it becomes more a part of my routine they won’t be as long – though…no promises!

“Spirit lead me where my trust is without boards. Let me walk upon the waters wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wonder and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior”

 

What has God been revealing to you?