My Wide Awake Moment

When we moved almost two year and a half ago we decided within 8 months of moving that we were too far away from our home church. On Sundays We were commuting at least 45 minutes (without traffic on 635). It was tough…not to mention we no longer lived close to those we were supposed to be “living life with.”  It made it hard to have spontaneous plans with our friends because we weren’t just down the street anymore.  Needless to say for this reason alone I was sad that we moved. It’s not that we are THAT far away, but when it takes 45 minutes or more to meet someone it makes it difficult. So, when our foundations group ended we decided to officially make the switch.

We visited just about every church in our town. And every week I was discouraged yet again – why couldn’t we find people in our life stage at these churches? Apparently we’re the only ones in our small town that don’t have kids.  Maybe God’s trying to tell me something! 🙂

Then about 6 months into our church search we found Hope Fellowship in North Frisco. Immediately I loved it. The worship was fantastic. I could feel God the moment we walked into the building. You know what I’m talking about? I felt as if when we walked in the room I was walking right into His embrace. It was incredible. The teaching is fantastic and the people are so nice.

Now over a year later, we’re officially deciding it was time to find community and get connected. A few weeks ago I took the plunge and went to a women’s conference at our new church. The only person I really  know there is my best friend, Erin. SO glad her and her husband are going to the same church as us. It makes it so much easier.

Anyway, back to my original reason for writing this blog. Erin and I attended the annual Women’s Conference at Hope, Wide Awake.  And let me tell you – I had several Wide Awake moments during the course of the weekend.

  1. I really want to be a candy thrower again!
    One of the speakers on the first night talked about being a candy thrower and how she used to be silly, but then she got busy and frowned upon people being silly around her. I totally relate to that. I want to be fun again! I want to be a candy thrower. I want to make memories filled of laughter and bring joy to those around me. Luckily for me with my career change I have a lot more free time that has helped me develop this part of who I was years ago. I’m excited to gradually become a candy thrower and I already have stopped frowning on others who are candy throwers themselves. I now remember how much fun they are having!
  2. Don’t stumble over something behind you.
    Sounds simple, right? Well, for me it isn’t. Maybe it’s just human nature, but I have such a hard time (some days) letting go of things in my past. Sometimes it’s bigger things and sometimes it’s conversations I wish I would have had. If I’m focusing on what’s behind me then how can I run the race He’s set before me? (Hebrews 12:1) My prayer is that I acknowledge when Satan is trying to use my past as a strong hold and remember that Christ cleansed me of my sin even though I didn’t deserve it. His love is that incredible!
  3. We are called to do great & impossible things.
    This one is still stewing in my heart. I’m beginning to realize what I want out of my life may be completely different from what the Lord has in store for me. I’m just praying that He helps direct the desires of my heart to where He wants to lead me. I’m eager to see what He reveals to me in the months to come. I’ll make sure to fill you in when the time comes!

  4. Remember in your marriage – you are a sinner married to a sinner. It’s not going to be perfect.
    This one was really big for me. I always struggle with wanting to be the perfect wife. the perfect homemaker. the perfect organizer. the perfectly joyful person. at. all. times. And you guessed it – this is NOT possible! I’ll never be perfect, but I can rest in the fact that I don’t have to be perfect! It’s so freeing. Of course I still want to strive to fill my home with happiness and joy, but if I mess up it’s not the end of the world.

    For those of you who know me…you know how big this realization is. I’m a perfectionist at heart. And the fact that God is continually reminding me that I don’t have to be perfect because He is makes me laugh. I’m so glad that He’s persistent in reminding me this. He’s only been trying to reveal this daily in my marriage for over three years!

  5. How has God called me to serve?
    This one God has been working on me for several months now. Before in my previous position I didn’t have the time, energy or spiritual stability to serve — I know it’s an awful excuse. But I allowed so much of my life to be consumed by my job that it wouldn’t have benefitted anyone to serve. NOW…three months into the new job I’m SO excited to find a place to serve at our church. God’s really been revealing to me different areas where I could be serving. I really have a heart for high school/college ministry because I feel like that’s when I needed help the most. I needed someone to help lead me down the right path, and I didn’t have that in high school.  I’m continuing to pray asking God to reveal if that’s really where He wants me to serve. I’m so ready to dive in!

Okay, so that was a LOT, but hopefully as I continue to figure out how I’m going to use this blog and it becomes more a part of my routine they won’t be as long – though…no promises!

“Spirit lead me where my trust is without boards. Let me walk upon the waters wherever you would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wonder and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior”


What has God been revealing to you? 



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